I've always been "different". It's not that I TRY to be, I just AM. And it isn't something that I can pinpoint and say "THIS is how I am different"... it's just one of those things. I am different and other people sense it and it creates awkwardness. I have TRIED to be a good little sheep, but it never quite ends up working out for me.
My trip to California did not net me a job, but it WILL make a fabulous chapter in the book I am writing. I worked so hard to try and figure out what they wanted me to be like(or what I needed to be for them to like me) that I completely lost being ME. So, who is this "Me" that didn't get to showcase herself? I'm the person who prefers a soda to a glass of expensive wine. I am the gal who will stay late to get the job done, who will come in on her day off (that also happens to be her birthday) because she wants to learn how to use the new Powerpoint equipment (and will not put the hours she spent learning it on her timecard). I am the gal who had a boss once tell her that he didn't want her as his admin, he had wanted to bring his admin from his previous position only to have that turn into one of the best working relationships EVER and generate a recommendation letter that still makes people say "Wow!" I am the gal that people love in spite of (or maybe even because of ) her quirkiness who will be a loyal friend who will love you with unbridled passion (and I bring my own scotchguard, cuz I know that unbridled passion can get messy)! I am the gal who prints her resume on lavender parchment paper and, at the age of 40-something still laughs at farts. And when I stop being THAT person... THEN I will truly be disappointed at who I have become.
